all you can do is try to make the best of it.

I am damn freaking sleepy.

"Have you flirted with anyone?"

"No."

"Have you married anybody, had kids?"

"No."

"Have you hooked up with a prostitute?"

"No?"

"Why is your life so boring?"

GA3 (Social, Humanitarian and Cultural)

- Eliminating sexual violence in conflict and related situations

- Developing social protection systems to support those who cannot support themselves

- Addressing the disproportionate impact of poverty on women

- Meeting primary health care needs, particularly in rural areas

I would be lying if I said that today is was a good day, I would be flat out lying.

I was thinking a lot today.

I need to stop acting like a matyr and more like a person.

I need to commit more. THIMUN-Singapore is on Tuesday, and I haven't written anything.

That means giving more than what I'm doing now.

But most importantly, I need to grow up and take it like (for the lack of a better word); I'm going to take it like man. Not a SNAG man (ugh. please), but more like Gene Kelly. Frank Sinatra. I don't know how it digressed here, but it has.

Also, I need to sleep. Yawn.

....you can waste about a minute of your life on this.

but the glee soundtrack has been all that I've listening to, other than the pieces ACband's been doing, interposed with one or two kpop/jpop or Mayday's songs. This is the mix (or shit) that I've been listening to for the past, hmm.. 2.5 weeks? I dunno. It kinda starts to feel like forever. School's out and yesterday I went to ECP after Band CIP/Comm talk (parrrtiiiallly cause Franco was treating, and the poor JC student always mooches. Well, I like to mooch. I'm sorry.)

Glee recommendations? Somebody to Love, Hate on Me,  Boys' Mashup (It's My Life/Confessions), Defying Gravity, Mercy and Rehab. For show choir standards - I really, really like Vocal Adrenaline, which is really the kind of music I would think a show choir would do, instead of solos by Finn and Lea while everyone else gets delegated to backup singing. I love Matthew Morrison, but how the show and the music is going makes me go -_-. Stars need their screentime, I suppose.

On other things, my family has been health obssesed, but now I'm started to be so consious about what I eat that it might be a -little- bit freaky. When I looked at pasta, I think 'blank carbos that will make me crash in 2 hours'. Or when I look at bread, (don't get me wrong - I LOVE WHITE BREAD) but if there's a soft wholegrain bread, I find myself more likely to choose wholegrain over white.

In short, I might be turning into.... mini-mom, or Melody Heng.

Now, if only my weight would show corresponding decreases...?

absolutely not.

first came the tears, then the uncontrollable body reaction.

then I think, somewhere along the line, I'll find acceptance while I'm stumbling along. Maybe it's in my heart, maybe I'll pick it up at the lost and found box.

I think I'll know if my own birthday is coming up.

But still, thanks lj, for informing me about it.

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although a book about the foolishness of optimism, I just couldn't help but laugh at the funny dialogue.

Plus, who can resist the Cheno?

 

 

I guess this is what you call taking one for the team.

Even though two of my team members seems more than willing to nuke me instead of lending a helping hand. Seriously.

still my favourite (:

I forcefully peeled off the temporary tattoo that I put on with Miv and Jo during the Saturday jaunt to Julian's house today because I was too self conscious to just walk around with it. Hurt like crazy, and the skin is all red and inflamed now. [ ):] Like have a wax for my wrist, really. I remember I had some kind of scar from the trip to Ireland, where I had rashes and I scratched it left a mark. I was pretty sad about it because three months on and the stupid thing didn't fade.

I'll go back to that matter in a while, but I can't shake the impending sense of doom and depression that seems to have descended on me. I need a slice of chocolate fudge cake and a retreat to some place where there is no technology - something that I seem to hate and love at the same time.

Econs SSP (SIGH), then dinner with the 2 of my most favorite people in the whole whole world. Then work. Nothing else, Celestine.

Going back to the Ireland scar, today I realized it has disappeared, which is funny. I'd thought that I'd never fail to notice it, but it came and gone just like that. A year and a half seems to be all it takes.

This too, shall pass, my JC Promos.